oh gloomy days…
It’s days like these where I wish I could bump into a cute boy, fall in love, pack up all my stuff, dash off to the airport hand in hand, close my eyes, and pick a destination. And never look back. But then I remember that I’m five minutes late for my next class, I have a paper due, I have to work tomorrow, all the boys in this town are idiots, I’m broke, I can’t find my keys, and I just stepped in gum. Okay, so my life isn’t horrible, but it’s not wonderful either. I go to school and work full time. I live at home with my mother and stepdad. I have pretty much no social life. I hate this god forsaken [not even a] town i live in. I hate community college, which isn’t even remotely challenging. The only thing that keeps me whole are my best friends and art (in whatever form). Basically, I am bored with this shell I call my life. I want something new. PLEASE!
tea and sunshine are my happiness.
(by ninepoems)
Hellogoodbye concert I went to a few years back…
(by marauder)
(via ventisette)
Stop living your life in the dark.
In the deep black void that fills you.
The cold that seeps out your words.
The dead in your eyes.
Please, let in the light.
Listen to my words.
Take my hand and warm your soul.
Just let the light in.
As of yet, I am not quite sure what I am actually doing with my life. I tend to waste away my days drawing, lounging in the sun, and working at a local restaurant. But is any of it getting me anywhere? I wish to do something much more profound.
I have all of these dreams and ideas to help and create and make a change. But instead I sit around trying to ignore all the problems people are facing everyday all around me. I close my mind from it all because if I stop and think about all of these troubles, i feel overwhelmed with the need to help but unable to share the solution.
So
I sit here,
unaware.
unaware.
unaware.